ok i agree this post is a bit late in the day....but i just couldnt let it go....diwali....somehow or the other for past some years diwali has been special.....with sweet memories of that particular day although the preceeding and succeeding days might have been filled with sad/hurt moments i wud luv to forget.
2004- after i dont knw how many years i celebrated diwali with dd, jijaji, dad, and sam (my brother). it was extra special as i was meeting dd and bhaiya after a long time and the whole family got together after an even longer time and the whole family together on a festival was after the longeeeeest time.......it was sad because the a very close and loved person had passed away a few days earlier....and it was worse as my world had come crashing down around me a couple of months earlier....people and relationships in whom i had believed more than i ve ever done in myself had proved that they were, after all, only people, and, only common fragile relationship.......i learnt that prayers are not always answered......wishes dont come true even if u wish hard, and paulo coelho is just an author when he says 'when u really want something, the whole universe conspires to give it to u'......i learnt that the list of 'things to get over' can sometimes be neverending and heart rending.....in spite of this, 2004 remains one of my fav diwali, more so as my room had been furnished by dd/bhaiya on that occasion. i ve been able to move only the dressing table to my new place.....
2005 - this diwali was spsd to be celebrated in my hostel room with the few people who hadnt managed to go somewhere. this grp was even smaller for me as i interacted mostly with people on my floor, who were mostly from delhi.....i cleared the room (first time after 4 months of having me and pooja there!!) and got diyas and stuff. at the last moment, pankaj's mom insisted i come and celebrate diwali with his family. i drove all the way to kalkaji in a big flowing skirt on my activa...met my cousin and her bf in gaziabad.... it was a memorable day being spent in the company of a family who was fun and welcoming. i think it wud be prudent of me not go over what had happened on the preceeding and succeeding days. some things ought not be mentioned in order to avert another war!! (i.e. if the person involved reads this blog!)
2006 - yes, one of the most memorable times in life.....exchange....how can i forget that night in salzburg when me, manghani, dada, anup and jis where roaming the empty streets joined by the guy from some iim (whose name none of us had caught and had a big discussion on whose guess was right!).....the phone kiosk which ate up manghani's 2 euros!! and the kick Jis aimed at its butt.....(the kiosk's not manghani's!!!!)anup's attempt to call his dad and our walking the empty and dark streets.....and the suspenseful train journey to our youth hostel which me, manghani and dada will not forget to end of days!!
2007- another different and memorable diwali....the first diwali where i played the main (and only) host....first time i did the pooja, lighting, diyas, dinner absolutely on my own....it was the first time i was hosting a proper dinner.......had gone to dd's place in the evening and then did pooja at home....lit all the diyas and arranged them....had cooked quite an extensive dinner and served it.....the bad part was that although the whole family was in pune, we did meet together and although me and sam went to B's place, we spent only an hour there....and i find it really weird when i am so close yet so far away from B and Beth.
lets see what the next few diwalis bring for me.....
2004- after i dont knw how many years i celebrated diwali with dd, jijaji, dad, and sam (my brother). it was extra special as i was meeting dd and bhaiya after a long time and the whole family got together after an even longer time and the whole family together on a festival was after the longeeeeest time.......it was sad because the a very close and loved person had passed away a few days earlier....and it was worse as my world had come crashing down around me a couple of months earlier....people and relationships in whom i had believed more than i ve ever done in myself had proved that they were, after all, only people, and, only common fragile relationship.......i learnt that prayers are not always answered......wishes dont come true even if u wish hard, and paulo coelho is just an author when he says 'when u really want something, the whole universe conspires to give it to u'......i learnt that the list of 'things to get over' can sometimes be neverending and heart rending.....in spite of this, 2004 remains one of my fav diwali, more so as my room had been furnished by dd/bhaiya on that occasion. i ve been able to move only the dressing table to my new place.....
2005 - this diwali was spsd to be celebrated in my hostel room with the few people who hadnt managed to go somewhere. this grp was even smaller for me as i interacted mostly with people on my floor, who were mostly from delhi.....i cleared the room (first time after 4 months of having me and pooja there!!) and got diyas and stuff. at the last moment, pankaj's mom insisted i come and celebrate diwali with his family. i drove all the way to kalkaji in a big flowing skirt on my activa...met my cousin and her bf in gaziabad.... it was a memorable day being spent in the company of a family who was fun and welcoming. i think it wud be prudent of me not go over what had happened on the preceeding and succeeding days. some things ought not be mentioned in order to avert another war!! (i.e. if the person involved reads this blog!)
2006 - yes, one of the most memorable times in life.....exchange....how can i forget that night in salzburg when me, manghani, dada, anup and jis where roaming the empty streets joined by the guy from some iim (whose name none of us had caught and had a big discussion on whose guess was right!).....the phone kiosk which ate up manghani's 2 euros!! and the kick Jis aimed at its butt.....(the kiosk's not manghani's!!!!)anup's attempt to call his dad and our walking the empty and dark streets.....and the suspenseful train journey to our youth hostel which me, manghani and dada will not forget to end of days!!
2007- another different and memorable diwali....the first diwali where i played the main (and only) host....first time i did the pooja, lighting, diyas, dinner absolutely on my own....it was the first time i was hosting a proper dinner.......had gone to dd's place in the evening and then did pooja at home....lit all the diyas and arranged them....had cooked quite an extensive dinner and served it.....the bad part was that although the whole family was in pune, we did meet together and although me and sam went to B's place, we spent only an hour there....and i find it really weird when i am so close yet so far away from B and Beth.
lets see what the next few diwalis bring for me.....
